First of all I have to say a big THANK YOU for the comments I have been left. I didn't think anyone would read my blog, let alone the day I started it and your comments are really uplifting. It's nice to know that I am not alone and that people don't judge me for sticking with my binge drinking husband.
This morning he managed to make it to work in time. I spent the night on the sofa, even when he asked me why I just didn't answer and pretended to be asleep. Once he'd gone to bed, I checked to make sure the alarm was set, which it was. I'm a lightsleeper anyway and I heard him get up before the alarm cos he was downstairs having breakfast when the alarm went off. I got up and switched the alarm off and then climbed into bed, where my two young daughters were already sleeping!
When he arrived home halfway through his shift I honestly thought he'd been sent home, but he'd just come to get a house key in case I was out when he finished. Luckily we had our last dole payment today as he's just started a new job so we had some money. We were planning to go to search for the cat, all of us this time, but the phone wasn't working cos we'd missed a payment so I had to pay that. I then reminded him that what he'd wasted in booze yesterday could have paid that bill.
He accepted that but also claimed that it was because I'd called the cat stupid that's why he'd gone on a bender! I told him I hadn't called the cat stupid, I'd called him stupid for spending so much money. £15 I could accept for train fare, lunch and drinks, but £40 seems too excessive. Especially as he didn't come home with any change!!!
Today's been pretty calm. He's been subdued and feeling the effects of his bender as well as feeling ashamed of himself